Day 12

Question: What practical choices will I make today in order to grow closer to God?

It has been a slump this last week. I haven’t read the book or Bible or journaled about the days I have read. Priorities were not there. Work was done, I packed up my apartment, relaxed at my friend’s aunt’s cabin, then unpacked in a new house, and now finished my first day of school. Lord, you know I prayed every day, and being at the lake gave me insight on being content. We stayed with a woman who did not find “Mr. Right” until 37 and they have a healthy 4-year-old daughter now. What I admired about her was her ability to be ok with being single for the rest of her life. She had accepted that, and I believe God has us work on being content and accepting of our lives because it is a reminder He is in control.
What choices should I make today to grow closer to God? I need to acknowledge my desire to have a more intimate relationship with my Father. “Dear Jesus, more than anything else I want to get to know you intimately” needs to be plastered on my walls. It reminds me to focus more energy on loving God more and praying more, and most importantly emphasizes to God my desire to grow. In relationships “I love you” is exchanged (hopefully) daily. The couple knows the love for one another but the act of acknowledgement shows honor to one another. It is the act of shouting to the world the love the couple has, the reinforcement, the constant reminder. Can you imagine living with your significant other and for a week he/she never said “I love you?” I’d be on the verge of depression and doubt. It is so clear now the pain God must feel when I don’t make an effort to show my love and ask for His help in knowing Him more. Lord, please forgive me. I want to get to know you intimately. Take my hand and show me.